Sonchu kya??? aur likhoon kya????

Sonch se kahani banti hai.. ab agar sonch ki dhaar ko rok diya .. to????
Is it possible - can a human being just stop thinking? what if I dont think? what am I doing right now? Whatever I am thinking I am putting it down in this blog .. right? there where days whence I dare not say to my better half what I was thinking. Why? 'cos inspite of calling someone your better half its hard to share every thought that runs thru your mind with him/her.. why? I dont really know.. you just cant.. thoughts are not logical, they might not be tangible.. they are a way you let your mind wander.. and what great philosophy,discoveries,even books,etc they create when they are unabound and abound.. so let it flow!!! let it flow!!! let it flow!!! loose and douse yourself in your thoughts.. cos they are the most precious things that you have to yourself..

Alls Well thats Ends well

Has been a week since I updated my blog.. I was busy :-).. about "alls well that ends well" - its figurative.. just a state of mind that you would love to be in.. we run away at the first site of trouble or problems in our life.. how many of us want to invest the time and effort to try and figure out a solution or in layman's term "fix it"? Wish we had a solutions book with a remedy for every problem in life.. how can you balance being politically correct, diplomatic, say and believe in the truth.. thats tough.. it takes mettle to do that.. do you have it in you? You want people to know that you are nice.. well at least being a virgo thats how I feel.. do not wanna hurt anyone.. yet convey to them the absolute truth.. my philosophy of "the cups half full" works only in compliment with the other.. one minute I am positive about life and the next minute my precarious nature makes me rethink.. hope I didnt miss a loophole in my judgement.. life can be complicated and it can be simple.. its solely your role in it..

So go ahead .. see what ends well for you..

Being me-self

Being myself.. everyone except the special someone in your life doesnt like you being yourself.. the sooner they get the commitment from you they start bombarding you with things that they like and dont like about you and things that they want you to change.. they get attracted to you because of what you are and then they want you to change? why? why cant they change themselves or accept you as you are.. why this hypocrisy? you keep wondering what you did wrong.. it isnt your fault..

Log Kya Kahenge?

we fear to do anything which we think will not find consensus from within our community or society.. why do we forget this life is ours.. we should live it the way we feel comfortable.. people talk just as "dogs bark".. some hue and cry and then they move on to some new gossip.. why fear? why stay in constant reminder of gossips.. why are we imbued with inhibitions from our childhood.. the fault lies in the parenting style that our parents have conviniently adopted - "just be on the safe side".. just preach and teach what we have known so long.. "if it aint broke dont fix it".. revolutiona has its good and bad effect .. why not leave the fear factor behind and embrace change for once..

lets start afresh.. lets rejoice in change..

Miles to Go

"And miles to go before I sleep" - David Frost... so true... theres a lot of fun in leading an independent life... and the miles are just so unknown..."tread with caution".. yeah!!!! if u are alone.. who cares? Ah!!! the freedom.. Ah!!! no tension.. but in reality.. do I see a loneliness creeping over you ever so slowly.. been there done that... yet am curious about those unknown miles in my life.. whats in store for me? wish I could embrace it gladly.. but wait.. what if there are dark dungeons with dead ends.. what if I am stuck for dear life.. nah!!! gonna put it behind me and trudge ahead anyways..

U show me the way..

the "tions"

Moving the last of my stuff out from a place I called home for the last couple of years. Ironic isnt it.. you call a house your home and leave small memories at every nook and cranny of that place and then you suddenly bid goodbye and take a u-turn.. ha!!! thats life... who knows whats in store for me and my daughter.. hope our future isnt bleak.. all I ever wanted was a life full of joy and happiness.. its only a state of mind.. rushing thru the din and bustle of life itself.. only a positive spirit can achieve true happiness.. "looking forward to a new day" is living life itself.. why people have trouble coming to terms with this is beyond my imagination.. "same old same old" - work, household chores, kids homework/activities, commute, laundry, grocery shopping.. well to summarize this is part of life too.. why cant we just do it with a oomph!!! or a yeahie!!!! we forget that we are all actors in a play called life.. everything is predetermined.. so true.. just live it.. discover the charm and you will acquire the power to sustain.. and its not just about sustaining its about the beauty of life itself.. why mess with depression, frustration, emotion and the number of other "tions" out there.. hey!!! just live life without worries.. yeah!!!! right .. if only that where possible...

Go figure!!!!

saturday - yet another weekend

"Wake up Mamma.. u have been sleeping for 16 hours now".. said my daughter and woke me up in the morning..."Whats the time now?".. I asked.. "probably 7:20 if they have changed the time else its 8:20 now".. can u imagine waking up so early on a saturday morning.. when u know u dont have grocery shopping .. cleaning.. etc,etc.. having a relaxing weekend with my good friends.. which reminds me God has been very kind in surrounding me with friends everywhere I have been... looking forward to Monday.. another new beginning for me.. lets see how that goes..

more later..

Festival of Lights - Diwali

Seasons Greetings for Diwali... "aap ke dwara dial kiya gaya number vyast hai.. Kripya thodi der baad dial karein" :-).. yes thats what festival of lights is about for us immigrants in the US.. we call home(India) to wish our family and friends and get the above message.. cant forget the good old days when my family and my friends family used to go fireworks shopping.. bickering for every kind of colorful fireworks that we could get our hands on.. only to burn that up in a jiffy.. and then lighting the whole house with oil lamps or even candles.. basically to ward off evil spirits.. and welcome Goddess Laxmi(Goddess of Wealth and fortune)... the concept is so similar to Halloween.. and is also celebrated around the same time.. cant forget the delicious sweetmeat and tasty chatpatta snacks that Ma made at home.. its festive season back home too as it is here.. but world apart..

Happy Diwali to one and all..

Decision Support System

"A decision is a choice between alternatives based on estimates of the values of those alternatives"... continuation of my previous blog.. yeah!!!! right.. computer science has developed DSS - Decision Support System.. how mechanized and systematized we have made ourselves.. this is a stream of Artificial Intelligence which helps make decisions.. wish lifes decisions could be made right out of some equations and theories.. DSS have been applied to Game theory, internet marketing trends, stock pricing, and many more such stuff..

Decisions

Ah!!!!! the dilemmas of making a decision.. wonder how people in management do it.. of course they sometimes have statistical charts laid out in front of them to make decisions based on trends, strategies and analysis.. about Ethics - Father Aby(Abraham Lincoln) says - "Be sure to put your feet in the right place and stand firm".. how do you decide which one is the right place for you? how do you decide who is the right person to deal with? how???? what about lifes decisions? how do you decide what is the right career for you? how do you decide what is the right branch or stream of education for you? how do you decide which one is the right job for you? how do you decide who is your right soulmate? if you know for sure.. then who the hell came up with divorce? seperation? why do people say - "whatever happens happens for something better" how can a healthy and hearty person's death be precursor to something good or even better? wish someone knew the answers.. life would have been much easier then.. you are sometimes torn between which path to choose when in a crossroad.. wish life was like a map showing the deep dark jungles and steep cliffs and oceans along the road.. come to think of it being a traveller we enjoy these as scenic beauty.. why cant we do the same for lifes ups and downs? why the pains and sorrows and complaints..

still searching for an answer and maybe living it every single day.. 'cos thats what life is all about.. choices that you make - how.. why and when you make it..

6th November 2007

Cant believe I finally got around to start blogging. Yes - new beginning.. why? I dont really know.. am still searching for an answer about my life. Why am I different from the rest of my friends? Why I go thru tough twists and turns in life? So unpredictable this life of ours is.. cant say for sure thou that its wonderful.. simple girl with a simple uneventful life from a steel township cosmopolitan background.. huh!!!!! who knew there was so much baggage that she had to carry along with her.. but then again come to think of it.. not bad.. we can make a beautiful story out of it.. I remember struggling to maintain a diary during my teenage years.. how long did that last :-) .. at least since I am glued to the computer anyways almost 24/7 the heck with it.. pour down my thoughts in a blog..

will get back to this later..