O thats why! The loads off today. I feel much lighter.
uff!! what a relief yesterday is done. gosh!! human mind! we unintentionally think so much so so much. On the actual birthday you expect a wish from almost everyone who comes to talk to you, at least I do. I am almost a tad snappy that day, guess thats happening more often with passing years. Its as if everyone is getting another year to wish me. It really sounds funny when I put it this way. Your expectation, more or less is that, they know its your bday and they should wish you. I was so tense all day yesterday, lest anyone didnt wish me. I felt mad and sad. I felt unimportant if the person talking to me didnt wish me(particularly if by intuition I knew he/she knew it and forgot to mention). I consider birthdays are special where a new star is added to your life. Its a celebration of life itself. That ultimate factor that makes us human. The heart within us that continues beating, that breath of life, the senses, the perception, the emotions, the thing they call love and of course at times the glorious feeling of adding another year to the thing they call your life.
ufff! glad yesterday is done. By the end of the day, if I didnt get a wish, I kinda coaxed the person to wish me or extracted a hug if I had to. Now I am smiling and laughing to my silly endeavors all through yesterday. But to tell you the truth, I feel much lighter and relieved that the day is done. From childhood I carried the feeling you have to really be gracious about this particular day and to the birthday person. Noone can scold you, noone can say bad things to you, etc and such stuff. Its a free pass to happy living that day. You get gifts and everyone appreciates you for who you are, at least that day. Its one day a year thats yours. Why not make the best of it!!!
uff!! what a relief yesterday is done. gosh!! human mind! we unintentionally think so much so so much. On the actual birthday you expect a wish from almost everyone who comes to talk to you, at least I do. I am almost a tad snappy that day, guess thats happening more often with passing years. Its as if everyone is getting another year to wish me. It really sounds funny when I put it this way. Your expectation, more or less is that, they know its your bday and they should wish you. I was so tense all day yesterday, lest anyone didnt wish me. I felt mad and sad. I felt unimportant if the person talking to me didnt wish me(particularly if by intuition I knew he/she knew it and forgot to mention). I consider birthdays are special where a new star is added to your life. Its a celebration of life itself. That ultimate factor that makes us human. The heart within us that continues beating, that breath of life, the senses, the perception, the emotions, the thing they call love and of course at times the glorious feeling of adding another year to the thing they call your life.
ufff! glad yesterday is done. By the end of the day, if I didnt get a wish, I kinda coaxed the person to wish me or extracted a hug if I had to. Now I am smiling and laughing to my silly endeavors all through yesterday. But to tell you the truth, I feel much lighter and relieved that the day is done. From childhood I carried the feeling you have to really be gracious about this particular day and to the birthday person. Noone can scold you, noone can say bad things to you, etc and such stuff. Its a free pass to happy living that day. You get gifts and everyone appreciates you for who you are, at least that day. Its one day a year thats yours. Why not make the best of it!!!
