Operation - Conserve, consolidate

Times are not good.. Oil(gas) prices are fluctuating.. people are loosing their jobs.. housing market is good @ some cities really bad @ others.. the dominoes effect is taking a big hit and the whole socio-economic-balance is crumbling.. tumbling.. hmmm!! dwindling... the best way to deal with this pandemonium is conserve, consolidate, recycle.. I am sure we all know this.. how many of us are really effectively doing it.. just a reminder to take it onto ourselves to be responsible civilians.. stay put.. sit tight.. and help people who are really in need.. this phase will pass too.. it better be soon.. let the cheery spirit of the holidays elope the damp circumstances that the system has put us thru.. playing the blame game is the easy part.. correcting it and prancing ahead is the call of the hour..

Reasoning!!

Why I am what I am?? I am sure we all ask ourselves this question.. some say - me? - I am intuitive.. some say - me? I am analytical.. some say - me? I am a good presentor, I organize my thots beautifully.. some say - me? am good with numbers... how do we know? heres what I found:
you must have heard several times about people being right brained or left brained.. people who use their rite brain more than the left are more intuitive and creative.. and will defnitely do good @ performing arts since they have added advantage to their artistic skill.. cos it comes naturally to them.. but did u know theres true meaning in the saying - 'u shud hone your skill' meaning rite brained skills have to be exercised inorder to make use of their full potential..
heres my question - y is it that my Guruji believes people good in mathematics are good in music.. here lies the 'tip of the iceberg' - this completely contradicts what I just wrote..
now people using more of the left brain are analytical and really have a tough time writing up an essay.. they are usually direct in their approach towards solution to a problem... they do well in an academic setting which necessitates convergence of thot processes.. o!!! did you know 'numerology' is a branch of mathematics related to number theory, which also helps describe a persona?? wow!!!
theres so much knowledge out there.. its interesting to know every number from 1-9 has a personality of its own.. arent u curious to know which number best describes u? I havent found mine yet..
I know I dig music.. but can I hammer the nail? - precisely!!!!
I love routine but the sooner I get a hang of it I crave for a change.. tough one!!

Whats mine? - A reminder

Complains complains.. I aint got this I aint got that.. guess no one really appreciates what they got
heres what I think I got :
Support from The LORD,
self respect,
self esteem,
confidence,
appreciation for my talent,
Blessings from my elders,
Love from my contemporaries and kids,
A roof above my head,
Every morsel of grain that I can afford to consume,
Clothes to cover me be it summer,winter,
My kid,
My Parents,
My Family,
My friends,
Still have a job :),
The canopy of love from all who knows me and love me,
a sound mind and body,
Guess I am the richest person on earth ..
and this is just the list from a moments thot..
if I spend a whole day calculating what I got - its unaccountable.. its just precious..

Mixture of Opposites

wow!!!
Flabbergasted.. yup!!! thats me.. u guessed it right.. in the midst of too many opposites.. once I suggest 'optimism' .. then again its - 'realism'... the next time I suggest 'patience'.. the very next moment I suggest - 'protest' and 'stand your ground'.. then again - 'be a little mellow'.. 'understand the situation.. maybe its not as bad as it seems'.. theres a whirl of activities encircling me .. I am a mere onlooker.. judging from a distance and yes I do get involved... and yet all these people very close to my heart.. have a definite say in my personal life.. yet am pulled by emotional tugging... long time ago - I had a dawning of being a counsellor someday.. now I feel that wud have been really foolish.. its a daunting job.. your personal experiences affect in judging any particular instance or situation.. it isnt easy just being plain perceptive... I rather am safe hiding behind a computer/laptop playing with data.. playing it safe... every situation related to every individual is perceived differently.. and the whole game of decision making and judging is based off of that.. amazing and at times frustrating yet there cant possibly be one conclusion..

confused arent u.. so am I..

Figment of My Imagination

was wiling away my time in cyberspace
felt gr8 to get back in touch with old frnds and keep in touch with newer ones
enroute was stopped short by a breath of fresh air
who barely just rejuvinated the lost engrained feelings
negated my current toughened core
tried to reach deep within to excavate the real me?
who am I
I feel so lost
do I have a purer core somewhere deep down?
I cant even begin to think.. maybe its just her/his illusion..
this fight between the real world and unreal has left me heavily spent upon practicality to romanticism
noone really appreciates the fact that its really tough to slide back and forth between the 2

The Time is Right - NOW

Of late havent been able to get myself to jot down on these virtual pages.. why? well!!! carrying too much of emotional backlog?? maybe!!!
life is so simple... wonder why we make it oh!!! so complicated.. u can just feel the pulse of the person next to you yet cant reach out to help him /her out .. cos of what u might get urself into??
days pass.. months pass.. even years pass before we realize what we have lost.. its a tough call!!!
I know someone suffering from neurodegenerative autoimmune disease.. meaning where the body stops producing the myelin sheath around the nerve endings.. meaning in lay mans terms ur whole body becomes dysfunctional gradually cos u cant feel anything.. consider the plight of the person who knows about this terminal illness.. so far I dont believe theres any cure.. yet I have seen this person who can just move his/her neck and upwards.. cant do anything by himself/herself without assistance.. yet the liveliness from her/his shoulder and face brightens up ur day.. her/his struggle with life every instance forces u to see the brighter side of every odd situation/circumstances.. yes he/she still lives with the disease for 20 odd yrs and breathing life every moment .. maybe she/he finds a greater meaning to life than we with every part of our body functional dont see ... hats off!!!
dont wait for a sunny day.. if u have someones good will @ heart reach out to him/her now.. cos we all are clueless 'if tomorrow comes'

The story about me

How did I get so impatient? Growing up heard Ma mention several times - 'gosh!!! u were a hand full.. running around.. all the time'.. I am sure she had a tough time keeping up with me.. my grandma had given up long ago.. I was always so full of energy.. started talking quiet late.. guess I was busy looking for trouble just being plain naughty.. unending source of 'energy'.. my school friends rightfully named me so.. then again - tube-light.. took me a while to understand what was the topic of discussion(well blame it on my wavering mind).. not any more though.. that maturity came with time.. then suddenly around 10 I turned into the quite,shy girl always with a smile on her face.. steeped in a story book.. the plethora of interest those crispy pages arose in me was unsurmountable.. clubbed in with studies, I was the serious,studious girl that everyone loved.. then came college - once again.. the nice next door girl stamp continued on.. completed higher education and ready to start married life.. continued as the same shy girl.. who wouldnt talk unless she was talked to.. what happened after that changed me into a completely hyper, tank full of energy once again.. in itself is an interesting observation... was I just hiding away in a shell? afraid to get out there and face the world.. too guarded by my guardians.. too protected to convert myself to a go getter? anyways
thats the past.. now its altogether a different story.. if only I could just check the anxiety that arises with it.. I am cool..
keep reading me.. maybe someday someone can explain 'Moi'