Relax!!!!

Who?? me? I wish I could.. its hard.. someone tell me how to.. a simple 5 letter word.. so circumstantially different.. its been a while I have actually completely relaxed.. even during sleeping the events of the day pop up in my dreams coaxing me to think of what to deal with next day.. ya!! relax!! try!!

misfit in a gym

oftentimes I am inspired to go to the gym..but with anticipation I enter 'Thy Kingdom'.. I get clumsy around the humongous equipments.. I somehow feel all those grave faced athletic looking people exercising their life out, are looking at me with piercing eyes ready to mock me at the slightest mistake I make in using an equipment.. aside from the treadmill(my bud), I dare not look at the other less friendlier ones..and during those rare occasions of going to the gym I finally gathered up the courage to acquaint myself with Mr Elliptical(just by watching others) and the bike too and that my friend is all I use if i ever step into Gym Kingdom.. its more the fear of messing up and the savory ego of not letting the other frequent visitors know that 'I am ignorant'.. :(
but I have found yet another comfortable and non-challenging method of exercising - a brisk walk in fresh air, in the mornings.. no exercise can beat that.. my goal - a healthier lifestyle..

Reflections

constant changes.. everyday u emerge as a new you, without even realizing.. when duty calls you sometimes go beyond urself and establish certain idealogy that surprises u..

Quagmire...

You try hard to be positive about life and keep fighting each day.. along that journey you unravel what life wants of you.. yet it aint crystal clear.. you keep digging deep, the deeper you dig the messier it gets..kya sahi kya galat.. so hard to figure out @ tyms.. your best bet is your own little world and your cosy corner which makes you feel safe for few moments.. if you have created your shelter around you, you like to stay in that shadow.. and then that moment comes when you wanna peek out.. you take one look and stretch into a stride then the next and yet when you think you are doing what you want and finding happiness in that, you end up in a quagmire.. how many realization does one need to dawn upon themselves? how many mistakes to do one right? lifes lessons - they are endless.. when do we actually stop thinking, cautioning ourselves, and start living? mere liye kya sahi hai - this moment? who knows it? even when I say this I feel someone's watching over me and probably smirking -'YOUR LIFE'S ROUTE IS IN MY HANDS' - as if an existence of a strong force somewhere in the clouds up there..

long tym.....

hi online journal - did you miss me? I did!! but cudnt find the tym or energy to jot on you.. very excited about new cultural project with friends, in the near horizon.. hope and Pray it sees success.. although it stresses me more, yet the prospect and enthusiasm of trying something new somehow tickles my energy buds..
dance drama with live music in music city Nashville, was hardly a thot even a year back from now..

was hanging around with friends for a casual lunch gettogether, chit chatting about how we all miss performances with live dance and singing, etc when this idea popped up.. with the effort of handful of people we embarked upon this journey which will see a culmination into 'Chitrangada', a dance Drama written by Rabindra Nath Tagore, to mark his 150th birth centennial year, by our just-formed performing arts group - Heartscape2011.
And then in june Regional Bengali Conference 2011. Highlights of this event - songs by Kavita Krishnamurthy, Annesa dutta, Aneek Dhar,etc.. check it out here : http://www.rbc2011.org/
Boy!!! am I so immersed in Cultural activities.. my lifeline pretty much!!

Education

Education - Is your lifelong guide to achieve your professional goals.
Misty
In trying to explain to my daughter why we need education this is what I came up with - a succinct definition in itself.. we can go on and on about education.. some people just cant make it beyond the books.. but most of us I am sure are more aware of how our education helps us grow in our personal life too.
You work for the money, self_fulfillment, a purpose in life and to help others too.

'Pretend you are a unicorn in unicornland'

'Mumma - that was our writing assessment prompt today @ school... I feel bad particularly for the boys.. they have no clue about unicorns .. besides I am not that girly girl or of that age anymore to think about Unicorns.. so it didnt go well..' said my daughter .. I cudnt help laughing @ her simplicity of diction.. my thots travelled back thru tym to my days of writing essays @ school.. writing essays used to be such a pain .. thinking about the topic and then putting it together was real scary @ tyms.. 'what words to use to fill up those pages' I would think.. and now it doesnt bother me.. I think I can swirl my pen or type-away @ the computer on any given topic.. OR can I? I think I feel its easier now since i dont have the pressure of gng thru the education system.. and I feel I am done.. OR am I? I work with computers .. I work in technology.. is there an end to learning? nah!!! we always have to keep ourselves abreast to the most current applications, softwares, gadgets, etc being used around our work-bench.. 'Need I write' u ask? well!! yes every single day.. even a well-formed email related to work is like writing your thoughts down into proper words for people to understand.. some managers complain 90 percent of their time is spent in Microsofts outlook express @ work or some form of email application.. anyways getting back to what I began - my daughter's basic complaint in this regard was that the topic wasnt cool enough for her to be able to express herself well.. so am on hold to see what grade she brings in for this assignment.. am guessing 'not-so-good'